Monday, 18 May 2009

Narcissus and The Merman


Narcissus and The Merman


And with the glitter trickling from my eyes, I look to the skies...
the reflection...like the stars on the water’s edge...won't you watch me awhile?
I can be your Narcissus, if only you’ll be my water, my life, my end to all lies.
Placing my finger tips into the water, tickling the already existing ripples from where you fell from the sky; tickling you until you cry.

Looking into the water, I see not I, but rather a distant memory, of the boy whom loved the Earth. Who now loves the water; where he finds you, dancing, waving, crawling.
I bring the tips back up and raise them to the sky; the clouds, the Moon, the stars.
Yes! You shine brighter merman, with your emerald tail glistening in the water, battering the waves, ceasing any stillness that might have been. Your scales, like diamonds resting softly on your tail, you are so beautiful, any woman would royally wear thee as their trinket.

And I? I see thee in my dreams, where you come on land, and we run; through the woods, through the fog and ice. Your hand held in mine, the hands soft from the battering of the waves, from the times spent fleeing…fleeing that awful weighting loneliness.

And yet Merman, love?

You can learn to love me, like the swallows have learned to grace the skies.
Like eternity has learned to accept solitude, like the Moon has learned to accept to be alone!
amongst her sister planets, her cousin stars. You can learn,
like your Sapphire eyes have learnt to reflect the steeliness of mine- you brighten the coldness.

Your arms like vines draw around my neck, far from menacing, like an embrace of invitation.
Your whispering song shatters the air; fragments of dust betwixt pulverized diamond rain…
Your arms gracefully slip down mine, until our fingers touch, soft hands…

Intertwining your fingers in mine you pull me closer to the water’s surface, our lips close to touch- but not quite.
I am falling in now, slowly, the melted silver and sapphire colours of the water warm my fingers, my wrists, my arms, my face and neck…everything.
You are my ocean, and I will learn to float, forever, an eternity of resting on you.
The waves; your arms, envelop me tenderly, around my waist and onto my chest…
You drag me into the darkness, deeper and deeper, I cannot breathe.
But your head resting against my back tells me all will be alright;
And as I close my eyes and let your love carry me down, I feel warmth; of a better place.

There is no world around us anymore, is there?
There is you and I, and the water, most beautiful water, you are so kind.

The swallows drop to the Earth like bombs, thud, thud, thud, dead.
The trees uproot and run, run into the seas to drown.
The Moon cries out for help, being broken down by the fall of her sister planets, crash, crash, crash; dead Moon, beautiful Moon.
The stars burn their brightest to outshine your eyes, but within an iota of a heartbeat; gone, surpassed.

Narcissus and The Merman, with their arms around each other, and their lips pressed, float and drift away with the shifting waves.
There is no world around us anymore, is there?
There is you and I, and the water, most beautiful water, you are so kind.


Lukee Grant.

Monday, 11 May 2009

Dearest Megan, <3.

I dreamt of you and I

I dreamt of you and I.
Running and hiding in the dark, behind the moonlit elms.
Where the hooting owls halt the singing silence. A cricket’s rasp, a wolf’s growl, a fox’s swish of the tail.

We hide our eyes behind our hands, our ears pricked to the noise of a raven’s call, the encroaching darkness, the whispering of the swallows.
Your words, ‘I love you’ like fireflies in the night; swaying, swishing, soaring.
We take down our hands in unison, your eyes, like diamond sapphires,
illuminate the shrouding darkness…the unforgiving are forgiven, the old are given life anew, the swallows are set free, to soar the open skies,
to sing their hearts to the blossoms of the trees…the trees…
Oh, eternal sage of wisdom, what do you have for me Elm?

Your lilied lips fall gracefully on mine, I taste your sweet scent, I smell the colours;
White and pink and yellow, an unfinished rainbow; mixed with cyanide.
From the emerald eyes, a crystalline tear forms, the dewy glow, falls to the ground
Listen, to the thunder’s sound…the singing ceases.
The foxes, the wolves and the crickets all lay still, anticipating the fall of the rain…

The winds whisper to the trees which arch back and fling the birds from their resting place, the rain, sweet rain, drowns out your words of love, the fireflies fly no more.
Stand up and run, the Elm cries with the creaking of its branches, the shaking of its bark.

Do not despair lover, for we are one, you and I and all the world around us.
The swallows twitter over head, the foxes, wolves, ravens and crickets dash for salvation to their homes in the wood.
We must too, advance into the night…
Listen, to the thunder’s sound.

I hope you like it Maygen, & know that I love you.

Saturday, 18 April 2009

Because she's my best friend, & I love her more than anything.

Megan says:
I love you.

Lukee; "It's not my smile that's broken, it's my heart." says:
I love you, too.

Without her I don't ever think I could get through my life, & I even remember the first day we met, & the last time we hugged & went separate ways.

You'll be my best friend, forever.

& i'll be yours, forerver;

Lucas, xx.

Monday, 13 April 2009

Picture Anotation.


I took your polaroid down in my room.

I lied, I'm feeling quite a lot atm.

I sometimes wish I'd never met you, never seen your eyes glow, seen your hair wave in the wind, felt the warmth of your seldom arms wrap around me; keeping me safe. & I don't even know why there's an "us". I wish that, just once you'd smile at me, & mean it, just the once, to let me know you see me, too, & not just the tenfold million people around us. I can't even look at the sky and see the clouds & the sun gleaming down, without thinking of you & the way your eyes did the same; they shone brighter than the stars that lit our skies.

I went out, into the forest, into the sea and into the depths of all my thoughts, and found no trace of you left. No footprint in the sand, or handprint on my heart. Not even the flickering song that was once "ours". That being if we ever really were a thing, I'd like to say I miss you; which I do.

Maybe you should miss me once in a while, too?

Once forever yours,
Lucas, x.

13/4/09

Right, well, today?
I didn't do much, tbh. I basically translated 8/10th of my Spanish oral....twas a'ight.
Urm, & I read Brighton Rock;
about some seventeen year old gangster in Brighton who's being followed by a fat alcoholic hooker. Could it get much better? I think not.

Anyway, i've no inspiration at all to write anything meaningful, atm. So read on through mindless crap, if you any cause to read at all.

1) I'm scared i'm going to fail my AS'.
2) I'm scared that one of my best friends might leave me.
3) I listen to the song "Tire Swing" far too much.

Also, I might start doing one of those "picture&anotation" things every day, so everyday there's a new one...till I eventually run out of feelings...which I think will be soon.

Furthmore, if you think I should talk about a certain topic...tell me...i'm a pretty free & open person, & i'll discuss anything you ask me about, you know? So, yeah, take care people;

Peace, Love & all that lies in between.

Lukee,xx.

Sunday, 12 April 2009

I do love you Maygen, even if we do bicker and swear at each other. And especially when you threaten to phone la policia when I lock you in our airing-o cupboard-o, makes me laugh; it truly does. Best Friends? I think so, <3.